“Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.”
—Psalm 139:16
As a child I developed a strong faith in my loving Lord Jesus. But at the age of eighteen this faith was shaken. While attending college, I encountered students from a multitude of religious backgrounds, which caused me to wonder whether I had merely been brainwashed by my family and church to believe in Jesus. I hungered to know the truth, and I avidly searched for it by attending philosophy classes and Bible studies, asking others about their beliefs, and crying out to the Lord at night.
I prayed for five years, telling God that unless He revealed Himself to me as Lord I could no longer believe in Him. I also asked Him to send me a man from Himself to be my husband if He truly was Lord. Throughout those five years, I felt my prayer was not being answered, and my once-strong faith in God began to erode. Soon I decided that life was merely about pursuing pleasure, and I directed all my efforts toward this self-centered goal. Eventually, my amoral life spiraled into a dark and depraved state, and I lacked inner peace.
At the lowest point of my life, I encountered a Jewish neighbor, whom I knew from high school. He told me about a vision he’d had of Jesus that revealed to him that Yeshua is Lord. As he spoke, I felt a surreal sensation, which I later came to know was the Spirit of God touching me. Then I heard a simple statement, “I am the way, the truth, and the life” (John 14:6), which answered my five years of prayer. That Jewish neighbor soon became my husband and the answer to the second part of my prayer! Together we are now Jew and Gentile, one in Messiah, building God’s kingdom and preparing for His return!
Beloved, your story, like mine, has many chapters, and the finger of God has written it. Father has a plan, a purpose, and a destiny for you that He completes as you partner with Him. Be not dismayed by your questions and the prayers that are not yet answered. It may take years for revelation and fulfillment to come, but it will come. Keep seeking, knocking, asking questions, and following His still, small voice to discover your identity and complete your destiny.
Lord, I wait upon You for Your answers. I keep pressing onward and upward in You. By Your mighty hand, complete the good work You have begun in me.
Cynthia Schneider, From Passover to Pentecost (Lake Mary, FL: Charisma House, 2021), Used by permission.
